[ by all accounts, jason should've been the first person roxy texted once the fighting stopped and the dust was more or less settled. if roxy was a normal girl who found it easy to face whatever fears and problems she had, jason would have been the first person she checked in with. but that's the thing, isn't it? it's easy for roxy to pretend to be a badass, square her shoulders and make jokes about shit that bothers her, pretend to have a grand ol' time while quietly waving away that which chips away at her insides.
there are some things that roxy finds hard to face, no matter what she tries to do, and one of those things is knowing that she's still navigating her way around dealing with her own mental roadblocks. while she might not be running quite as fast as before, it's like she's standing in between her problems and a gymnastics course and she has to do her best to duck, leap and scale whatever obstacles are there just so that her problem seems smaller the farther away it gets.
it's just perspective, and not the type that she needs.
roxy tells herself that jay has his own bullshit to deal with, that he probably has friends that were injured and he needs to look after; she shouldn't bother him. she tells herself that the rasalhague are gone now and she doesn't have to worry about this anymore, she'll see him eventually because they always cross paths. she tells herself she has to be responsible and do the paperwork for hades and get things back up and running now that tatsuya's gone.
she doesn't tell herself that she's too freakin anxious over the fact that he might not be here anymore because other than darcy and hiro, jason's the closest thing to a best friend she's made here in zodion. especially now that the latest news (jiyeon, her cat was sent home) is the glue sticking her feet to the track, making it impossible to duck around this problem any longer. ]
hey jay cuh-razyay month just got hella crazier lmao like idk even where to begin that shits just messed nice 2 know those gods can throw down when they wanna i guess krios wasnt lyin bout them bein our protection
[ she hesitates, not even sure where she's going with this. ]
i guess i just wanted to check in w/you i know i coulda just looked @ the list but tbh wheres the fun in that if i took the easy way out i couldnt get to talk 2 u and lbr thats like THE hi-light of this place
[ gotta add that bit in: jason likes having his ego pandered to, she's learned, and she's all too happy to do so. but if she keeps going like this she's sure it's all going to come out in some pathetic ploy for attention, so she holds her breath. and sends it. ]
april 28, 1/2
there are some things that roxy finds hard to face, no matter what she tries to do, and one of those things is knowing that she's still navigating her way around dealing with her own mental roadblocks. while she might not be running quite as fast as before, it's like she's standing in between her problems and a gymnastics course and she has to do her best to duck, leap and scale whatever obstacles are there just so that her problem seems smaller the farther away it gets.
it's just perspective, and not the type that she needs.
roxy tells herself that jay has his own bullshit to deal with, that he probably has friends that were injured and he needs to look after; she shouldn't bother him. she tells herself that the rasalhague are gone now and she doesn't have to worry about this anymore, she'll see him eventually because they always cross paths. she tells herself she has to be responsible and do the paperwork for hades and get things back up and running now that tatsuya's gone.
she doesn't tell herself that she's too freakin anxious over the fact that he might not be here anymore because other than darcy and hiro, jason's the closest thing to a best friend she's made here in zodion. especially now that the latest news (jiyeon, her cat was sent home) is the glue sticking her feet to the track, making it impossible to duck around this problem any longer. ]
hey jay
cuh-razyay month just got hella crazier lmao
like idk even where to begin that shits just messed
nice 2 know those gods can throw down when they wanna i guess
krios wasnt lyin bout them bein our protection
[ she hesitates, not even sure where she's going with this. ]
i guess i just
wanted to check in w/you
i know i coulda just looked @ the list but tbh wheres the fun in that
if i took the easy way out i couldnt get to talk 2 u
and lbr thats like THE hi-light of this place
[ gotta add that bit in: jason likes having his ego pandered to, she's learned, and she's all too happy to do so. but if she keeps going like this she's sure it's all going to come out in some pathetic ploy for attention, so she holds her breath. and sends it. ]